Called on purpose for a purpose

How can it be? but why me? can't I simply help from the sidelines? isn't my day to day study enough? Does my Sunday to Sunday fellowship not take care of whatever obligations? the answer was a resounding no. The said conversation went a little something like this:

Me: I have neither the time, drive or desire to get my hands all dirty, why can't the things I'm doing now satisfy you?
Him: I was also quite busy with a lot on my mind, but I saw you, and my heart went out to you, I had to do something about your sorry state. I took time off, to become like you, to understand you and your reasoning. To fully grasp your strengths and weaknesses, all of this i did on purpose. Not because it was convenient, far from it, but because I love you.
Me: But you know me, I am not the boldest or strongest, am not even charismatic, how am I to reach out and help?
Him: Do you know what it is to be alone, to struggle with flesh, with the emotions that threaten to overwhelm?
Me: Yes, those are all familiar areas, you know this, since you helped me overcome them.
Him: Well, all I ask is that you show others that are like you were, the way out. It's something you are equipped to do already. I called you on purpose, yes, don't let it surprise you, and it's because you can serve this purpose. So who shall we send?
Me: (quite timidly) if you promise to go with me, then i am willing to go. I am able, because i have you on the inside.

We all, are called on purpose to serve a purpose, He knows our weaknesses and our strengths, and He wants us to use them for His glory. In season and out of season, remember Christian, to seek not yet repose...watch and pray. The opportunities abound by which we can spread His love to those hungering after it. I am speaking to myself first and foremost here. Grace and peace.